And I'm not making this just because my birthday is coming (aha! excuses!)
This wish list will be of those material things which I want to have (either I can afford them or some generous people will make me extremely happy by granting my wishes) and some are things which I am planning to do.

TO-HAVE:
(of course, in no particular order)
1. a Nine West white/off-white bag
2. a purple bag
3. DSLR (I want a Nikon)
4. Ipod Touch 32GB would be nice
5. a new Starbucks mug (mine got broken)
6. non-stick pan
7. Asian and Italian ingredients to inspire me to cook

TO-DO(long-term):
1. enroll in a baking class
2. buy an oven
3. finish MBA
4. go to Singapore
5. buy a DSLR


Some things I am considering doing(short-term):
1. go to Manila Ocean Park
2. Corregidor? I'm not really sure
3. go to the beach
4. Watch ASAP (I want!!!)
5. watch a concert
6. attend mass at Antipolo church

end note:
It's nice to be writing again - both online and in paper. I've updated several entries on this blog. But they're private or can be read by friends. This is a journal after all. :)

So many things to do . . .

. . . no inspiration to do them. :(

I feel nostalgic. I haven't written in a really long time though not because of the lack of something to say. Lack of inspiration perhaps or maybe just plain laziness.

I read through past blog entries and realized a part of myself. I am both same and different.

I have been obsessing about Grey's Anatomy lately. It has been 3 years since I last got crazy about it. I have Cristina icons in my blog. Perhaps, some interests remain the same.

Today, I tried to ask, lead and motivate. I wasn't good. I doubt I clearly made my point. I knew my tone betrayed the words that came out of my mouth. But I am proud that I tried. And I want to try harder. I want to be better in leading people.

I'll stop. I'm multi-tsaking reading about my MBTI, writing and watching episode 11, season 5.

Single Malt Scotch. Am I like that?

I've had enough with hitting myself with a hammer. It's all in the past. I’m moving on. I’m finding my peace. This is not me putting up a brave act. This is a statement.

 

I've had my heart broken by a friend I trusted so much. I have not, even for a second, imagined that he could hurt me this way. But all has been done. There is no point lingering in the past.  I can only learn that friendship is never a guarantee of a lasting relationship. That trust once given and destroyed can never be returned. It can never be earned back. It can never bring back the past.

 

I choose not to get out of this situation as a bitter person. No one can make me be that. Life can only throw so much at anyone and we just have to learn to cope with it. I will be a better person.

 

I have so many friends who have been there for me. I’m not bragging; I’m just thankful. I realized that I’m growing up. I’m taking responsibilities. I’m learning. I’m discovering. At least, I’m already in the process of growing and not stuck with discovering how to grow.

 

As I’ve always said, a rough road leads to the stars. I’m on my way to becoming stellar. God bless the broken roads that made me who I am.

4 Jeffrey Archer books - Mic
3 Nicholas Sparks books - Irene
2 Sidney Sheldon books - Yasmin
2 Harry Potter books - Kate
1 Marian Keyes book - Zarah
1 Paulo Coelho book - Adnan
Love in the time of Cholera - Jean

14 books in total. Just so I could keep track of them. But I love lending books because at least, someone gets to read them instead of just staying at my bookshelf. Well, only if they take really good care of my precious books. :P

Got this from Zarah Dane's blog:

You are Justice

Equity, rightness, probity, executive; triumph of the observing side in law.

Justice is about cold, objective balance through reason or natural force. You can't keep smoking and drinking without consequences to your health. It is the card that advises cutting out waste and insists that you make adjustments, do whatever is necessary to bring things back into balance, physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually. It is a card of balance and harmony; if there is imbalance, the correction may
require recourse to the law.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Heck, life is supposed to be interesting . . .


- Should I buy the Charles & Keith shoes or not? It costs P1050, a 30 percent off from the original price. I know it's quite expensive but it's a Charles & Keith shoes. Besides that's only P200 more than my intended budget on shoes. But then, if I buy this pair, could I actually control myself not to buy another one especially during the year-ender sale? Another thing is should I spend a thousand pesos for just a pair of shoes. I could almost hear Zarah murmuring in the background, "a thousand on a pair of shoes???? that's too much." But the shoes are really cute . . . . .

- 2 more stickers to go and I'll have my Starbucks planner. I was willing to spend on that 2 coffee just to get the stickers but then my brother stopped me and told me to just wait for a friend who'd have coffee with me so that at least I don't have to spend for the other coffee. Thank goodness my brother is not as impulsive as I am and has more sense. Oh, I couldn't wait to get that planner.

- I wonder if it is bad that I don't get to be disappointed at all because I've gotten used to disappointment.

OMG. I am so freaking bored. I don't have anything to do and I'm stuck at home. And I don't wanna read or watch TV. All I want to do is have coffee at Starbucks but unfortunately I can't go out. This is so frustrating.

Btw, I went to Divisoria last Wednesday with Mic and Zarah. I was able to buy: for myself (1 blouse, 6 hankies, 1 sandals, 5 earrings, 2 pambahay shorts), for Kevin (1 bag, 2 T-shirts),gifts for 2 godchildren and 3 sets of pouch bags. Oh, but I spent too much for Starbucks on that day just to get those freaking stickers. But I had a good time. I was really tired and my lower back was aching but then I'd never pass up a chance to go shopping. ;P

I am one demented soul. I'm doing something that I've tried endlessly to justify.